I want more days

this livid repository.

elemental conjunctions in a unity of syntax: relevant, irrelevant, relevant, irrelevant. smiles only distract, words only spit, the faces never can hide their spite and their tiredness and everything that we wanted and never got back. our acquisitions mount, the things in our lives pile up. things reside blind and meek in the corners of those smiles, corners meant to hide and cover and distract.

but smiles always smile back. you can bet on that. they trained us to do that. that is education, that is the civilized way. smiles always smile back.

fear is envy without hope for regress. degradation, suppression, thoughts of others concluded by ourselves. and the decisions they mount, the sorrows, the mercies, the sad face that has realized too late that it has realized too late. to see the end too soon, to sense that the time has come and gone. it is life's cruelest fate.

stop. turn off the music, stop the words, cut off the thoughts, push aside the cares of our heavy-minded days. step off the brink and glide onwards without so much as a breath, without need for any more breaks. descend descend descend. inevitably we will all find there is to each life both a depth and a grace. inevitably our day will come when everything will speak through the silent memory of a lover's gaze.

inevitably we will all have time, time to say: I want more days.

I want more days.